God, Please Help Us

Please pray for Sai and his family. Sai is struggling to live in critical care. His family stands firm besides him. Sai has been incubated for 4 weeks now. Please pray for him.

Please pray for Tou Kou's his family. Tou Kou was hit by a car and killed on April 21, on highway 99. He's suddenly gone and we're all still in shock. Please pray for his dear mother.

http://www.cbs47.tv/news/local/story/Pedestrian-Killed-on-99/xuqnkOSLG0u7F1Qtl_SAUA.cspx

Thank you.

3 Weeks

It's been 3 weeks since my official return to dieting and exercising. So far, not so disappointing. I know I can do better.

I've lost a total of 12 lbs! Yay!

I have better control of my diet now. At first, I was experiencing a lot of headaches when I feel hungry but now, it's less common.

I've also switched the 'burn fat' mode on the elliptical to 'cardio'. It was very challenging to workout in this mode, at first, but now, it's more subtle. Though, towards the end of my 20 minutes, I still feel exhausted and beat.

I've increased my weights too when working on my abs, shoulders, arms, and back.

I feel sore too, which is a good thing right? LOL

Well, I owe it to myself, I did well but can always do better.

Week 2

Diet and weight loss wasn't successful this week. I know ate more than I did last week.

I need control, damn it!

Exercise is coming, I'm just looking forward to be challenged.

Pink

Man, I love purple but pink just compliments me so well!

I feel so voluptuous in pink!

Last Night's Dream

My police interview call yesterday was quite interesting.

I dreamed about working with the police in a heroine bust and investigation. I was a UC. LOL! I was an accomplice in receiving the heroine. Well, I took what I can and ran into a car. Then I arrive at the police station to report and write my report.

Suddenly, I was pulled from the investigation, as I was selected to combat the evil. I was selected by the community and my father was the one who gave me up for this sacrifice. In combat, I must fight until I die, all for the purpose of saving the world. The world was in hiding when the evil arrived in a form of black smoke, like the black smoke in Lost. There were others, lets call them "com-batters", with me. I watched as the evil merciless and repeatedly thrust blows on a com-batter. We com-batters were selected to fight the evil without any supply of weapon, thus, I frantically searched for something to stop the evil from destroying the com-batter.

The evil then saw me and came after me. I ran to hide in a corner like a coward and I prayed. I prayed with my eyes shut tightly. I felt the evil hanging over my head but wasn't able to touch me. Finally, it left. Then my father came to tell me that we com-batters were selected to fight the evil 'cause we are pure at heart and the evil won't be able to wield us. With that being said, it was up to the com-batters to spare the world from being demolished by the evil.

Tired and dirty from blood and mud, a lot of com-batters were hurt and near death. Hope was almost lost and I had forgotten my purpose to fight. I wanted to give up. But I chased down the evil and was about to slash it apart with my sword, willing to kill or be killed. Suddenly, my cousin pulls me aside and tells me that her auto insurance is going to call me about the damage on her vehicle and that she'd blamed the damage on me. I was enraged!

I pushed my cousin aside and ran right up to the gigantic black smoke of evil and started slicing away. The evil slammed to the ground like a heavy weight wrestler, bringing down all the com-batters it had in its grasp. I continued to slice away; black liquid (something like blood) splattered at me. With each slice, I chopped off a piece of the black smoke and it turned into flesh, rather than evaporate like smoke would. I sliced and chopped away, freeing as many com-batters as I could.

At last, the evil was no more, the sky cleared up to be a bright blue and the world came out from hiding. We, the com-batters, faced the world with injuries, blood, mud, black liquid, tired, out of breath but were relieved.

Yeah, it is only in dreams that I can be that courageous. I'm very afraid of getting injured. Being a diabetic, it takes more time than usual to recover from injuries, wounds, or infections. But if I have to be in such a situation, I'd fight with all my might, to kill or be killed.

What would you do?

5 lbs

YAY!

I did it, I done lost 5 lbs just from dieting, within a week's time!

Downsizing on portion is so difficult! I often cheated, felt like I was going to evaporate 'cause I was so hungry. One time, I even got up at 2:30 in the morning and ate 2 chicken wings that my brother had cooked. I went to the buffet once, too! Eating less was a complete disaster for me. But to my surprise, I lost 5 lbs.

Now, I know that those 5 lbs are just water weight but at least I got that out of the way. It is now time for the real challenge to lose pounds of fat.

I often drink a lot of liquid: green tea, diet coke, ice cold water, and sometimes, even gulp down a load of broth. But eating less has caused me to drink less as well. Before cutting back on my portion, I used to be able to drink 1 and half, large size cup, of McDonalds' diet coke. Now, I'll be saving money if I can even ingest half that large cup.

Anyway, I'm just glad I was able to accomplish this much in my goal to achieve a healthier me.

Staying focus is always key.

This week, I have to get back to working out.

$17

$17 is all that I'm getting for my federal return! I dreaded this, thus took my time to file this year.

I need to have a kid.