Friday, May 1, 2015

Aishiteru

These days, oh how these days are long and the nights indefinitely daunting. Each morning, I am scourged by the thought that I may not hear from you. The plight is inevitable and faith seems faceless, without a smile to cheer us on.

I refuse to be herded by the things they say and do not say. Sometimes, they make us sad, make us cry, anger us yet, we should just keep rebounding off the ground they push us upon. And I know that your heart is as exhausted as mine is, but with time and by withstanding trials, comes improvement. Somehow, our love will hold up.

We are going against the current, never an easy task. It is all painful and it tears me up inside. But knowing that I may lose you, I hold on even tighter. I am always crying 'cause it makes me ever too sad that you will be sad to be without me.

But we are connected by this sadness and it makes us love each other all the better. And when we have love, we only strive for it to be everlasting. Even when we are finally bidden to be together, to our last drop of blood, to forever, darling, we will die but this love will not. To you I say, not "I will love you", not "I have loved you", but aishiteru.