Commitment

In my search of love, relationship, companionship, with all my endeavor, I finally came upon the person that is fully committed to me.

The only problem is, I'd never thought it'd be this hard, this bad that when I don't have anything to say or share, it triggers uneasiness in him. It's not that I've lost interests or have doubts. Sometimes, I blank out, not just to him, but to the whole world. That is incredibly hard to him to come to grasp.

Subjectively, we've reached the end of the honeymoon and we're beginning to settle in now. Change is difficult to fathom. I know that I'm not over him and I'd still want to be with him. I still get butterflies.

A Proposal Worth a Million Bucks!

OMG! All the tears and joy, all mixed together!

I'm so sick of this!

Gosh, losing weight is so damn difficult! I've never once complained or doubted myself until now! Losing that 5 pounds a week is terribly challenging.

I've already gained by 6 pounds of the 12 that I've lost! Gosh!

Here's a new plan of action. I'm going to consume more so I don't have such throbbing headaches. But I'll still cut down on portion size and stay away from carbs to avoid weight gain.

Thank goodness, summer is here so it'll be too hot to be eating pho! LOL

My goal is to drop 15 lbs by June.

I want this!

I'd love to have this necklace!

God, Please Help Us

Please pray for Sai and his family. Sai is struggling to live in critical care. His family stands firm besides him. Sai has been incubated for 4 weeks now. Please pray for him.

Please pray for Tou Kou's his family. Tou Kou was hit by a car and killed on April 21, on highway 99. He's suddenly gone and we're all still in shock. Please pray for his dear mother.

http://www.cbs47.tv/news/local/story/Pedestrian-Killed-on-99/xuqnkOSLG0u7F1Qtl_SAUA.cspx

Thank you.

3 Weeks

It's been 3 weeks since my official return to dieting and exercising. So far, not so disappointing. I know I can do better.

I've lost a total of 12 lbs! Yay!

I have better control of my diet now. At first, I was experiencing a lot of headaches when I feel hungry but now, it's less common.

I've also switched the 'burn fat' mode on the elliptical to 'cardio'. It was very challenging to workout in this mode, at first, but now, it's more subtle. Though, towards the end of my 20 minutes, I still feel exhausted and beat.

I've increased my weights too when working on my abs, shoulders, arms, and back.

I feel sore too, which is a good thing right? LOL

Well, I owe it to myself, I did well but can always do better.

Week 2

Diet and weight loss wasn't successful this week. I know ate more than I did last week.

I need control, damn it!

Exercise is coming, I'm just looking forward to be challenged.