I'll Be Here

Gosh, this picture speaks so much volume! When I first saw it, I thought of my friend Marlene 'cause she loves pandas! They are so cute and cuddly! I had to link the picture to her FB.


And then I thought of a couple, working together to accomplish a task. And then I was flooded with thoughts of me and Tut. I can't help it. I'm always there for him, doing what I can do. I don't think I've ever refused his call before. I want to be able to see him through what he's going through. I don't want to fail this task. Like all great and strong things, we can only be destroyed from within, God forbid.


But these two pandas look like siblings or even a pair of good friends, just lending a hand. *sighs* All the emotions that runs through me simply can't be express. I absolutely love this photo!


But overall, they are pandas, just probably doing what pandas do!

New Year, New Resolutions

Here's to a new year, a new, better, and improved you! 
My resolutions are still the same but to improve at it. 

-Control diabetes
-Save money
-Keep a healthy and sensible diet
-Continue to focus on and accomplish weight loss
-Be dedicated to being active
-Stay focus on all goals and tasks

I've been having these same resolutions for about 2 years; this will be my third year. Each year, I get better at keeping my resolutions. 2011 was my most successful year. I believe Tut has something to do with it; he's always pushing me and reminding me of my goals. Thank you, love. In a sense, he's always nagging me but I'm still glad I get reminded to do well! 


For breakfast, I get no easier break than to have a simple and delicious fruit and veggie juice! 

2 celery, 1 green apple, and 2 carrots

And for lunch, I'll have 1 serving of whole grain oatmeal with apple bites, raisins, and sliced almonds! (Not pictured)

Here's my dinner, a part of my change is to have more veggies and less meat. 

Chicken wing is my substitute for breast! 

In between meals, I'll snack on prunes to help with digestion. And I'll have peanuts to sustain hunger! 

Here's a breakdown of my intended weekly workout schedule:

Sunday: AM 1.5 hour workout

Monday: Rest

Tuesday: Rest

Wednesday: 6AM 1 hour workout

Thursday: 6AM 1 hour workout

Friday: 6AM 1 hour workout

Saturday: AM 1.5 hour workout

As for saving money, I'll have to purchase a safe box with a lock so I can save cash. Throughout my years of attempting to save, I keep drawing funds from my savings account into my checking, hence, I can never save! And since I don't like using cash, I'll unlikely take the money from the safe box to spend. Moreover, if I store the money away, don't see it, and don't think about it, I most likely would not use it! I'd like to save about $100 a month! 

As for the rest of my resolutions, I know I have to diligently work at them. I want to make my resolution a permanent change, a lifestyle change as opposed to just an annual resolution. 

Good luck folks! 

An Outdoors Evening With The Boys!

Today, our power went out (PG&G's behalf) so I took the boys outside. First we visited the play ground.

Vang whined 'cause he had to wait for us to 

adjust the swing. 

Lee always have a good time! 

Finally smiling after he was pushed high in the swing. 

And then we went to the garden. I had the boys helped with picking 

mustard greens for their grandparent's dinner. 

And I made boiled pork with mustard greens; 

the lemon grass gives the soups so much freshness! 

And upon going inside, Lee grabbed his long lost friend, 

"cock-o-dial" and took him home. 

It's nice to spend time with the boys and be active with them but gosh, when someone else bothers them so much and they cry and cry, I get so frustrated! I make them both sit down at the kitchen table and eat their dinner without any television (which their parents always allow) 'cause I was so frustrated! By turning off the T.V., Lee ate hastily and didn't complain at all! I shall turn it off more often! 

I Found Love

Hopeless as it may seem, there's no turning away.

Our Christmas Cards

Something sentimental for keepsakes. 

I miss Tut, finally.

The amazing body goes into shock when we experience trauma so we can survive. This explains your sense of calmness, numbness.

I miss Tut. I'm no longer in shock.

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