Nervous Wreck

Literally, my nerve felt absolutely weak and maybe even twitching yesterday at the gym. It was my initial return to the working out since December. I've done activities and such to put my muscles in motion, but to be vigorous, I haven't done so in quite some time. I know that working out shouldn't feel this way. However, I'm a diabetic, of a year and a half, now, one should expect things to be a tad different.

I remember when I started working out in 2004, I didn't feel weak or as if my muscles were going to give up on me. They were sore but nothing similar to making me feel like I was going to fall over. But being the champ I am, I sucked it up and continued working out. Don't get me wrong, I took it lightly and mainly worked with the weight machines with a seat. The weak feeling was still present but I felt a bit relieved and secured 'cause I was sitting.

I know that I'll need to be more careful, anything can happen, moreover, I should eat breakfast, perhaps. I know I should have some kind of indication of my disease. I do carry my medication cards with me but that's hardly any help. I really need to start looking for a medical ID bracelet.

Where should I look, any ideas?

My Medication

Thanks God for my parents!

Last summer, my dad had purchased this Chinese powdered medicine (I'm not disclosing the name) to for me to combat my diabetes. At first, I was skeptical (my typical reaction of Asian non-prescribed medication) of the healing ability of the med but I gave it a shot anyway. I had to mix a small amount (about the size of the tip of table spoon) with a quarter of a cup of water. Goodness! To my shock, the powder was acutely bitter, I gagged and nearly vomited everything. One hour later, I checked my blood sugar and surprisingly, it dropped by 100 unit! Amazing how it worked. From then, I relied on this Chinese powdered med to decrease the level of my blood sugar. In a sense, I was relieved! Then one day, it was gone, missing, perhaps I'd misplaced it. I couldn't find it anymore, unfortunately. I asked my parents for another bottle but they can no longer find the person that was selling it, sadly.

Well, finally, they were able to obtain a bottle for me, yesterday! But the medicine now comes in the shape of a solid pill, which made it so much easier to take. This time, no more mixing, no more gagging! It's just a simple little pill that I can easily swallow and be on my way. Before bed last night, I took one of the pills and I woke up this morning to happy feet! Literally! Usually, in the morning, I'd wake up to my feet feeling sensitive, swollen, numbing, and tingling, but this morning, I hardly felt any of those symptoms, like my feet are happy! Yes, I may possibly be under a placebo effect, regardless, I'm still feeling better!

I checked my fasting blood sugar this morning and it was 188. I know that's high but that's only 30-40- units short of having a normal blood sugar level for diabetics. I'm getting better and back on track! Must I add, it's a relieve to see that 188 'cause for a while there, my reading was always in the mid 200-300 range. See what I mean now?

The picture on the top is a photo of my current meds.

Somethings Concerning

I really hate being off track. Easter has just passed and I felt like a druggie being surrounded by crystal meth, so close at hand. I had all the sweets, the chocolates, the cake, the carbs, the greasy food all within my reach. It was so hard to contain myself. I'll admit, I had a little bit of everything, exceeding the max carb intake, I'm allowed. But I tried, I really tried, hard. Sadly, in the end, I failed miserably.

So after consuming all this junk, I didn't feel sick but I know my nerve was affected. The Sciatic nerve in my right leg started acting up, numbing the biceps femoris, it was agitating while sitting or lying down. I was only relieved when standing. After some walking, I was able to relax a bit. But that's not the only thing that is concerning.

I noticed that there is discoloration in my finger nails (I don't even want to mention about my toe nails) and numbing in my fingertips. Of course, a numbing sensation is subsequent to over ingestion of sweet or carbs, almost, always, specific to me. But I'm also thinking that the discoloration may also be a symptom of a nail treatment that I'm doing (attempting to lengthen and strengthen my nails with a nail polish solution). After all, I didn't noticed the discoloration, simultaneously, with the numbing before. Thus, I'm thinking that the nail treatment may have caused the discoloration.

I'm still trying to get back on my strict diet and exercise, and struggling with it. I just need to initiate and it'll take off from there.

Good night.

Being Sick Sucks

I feel as I've been doing well, managing my diabetes, for a bit until I ran out of medication. I tried to get a refill but it wasn't time yet, meaning, I had a waiting period before my insurance will cover for the drugs again. When this happened, it really threw me off track. You know, when you're numbers are high, it seems almost impossible to control it. That was exactly how I felt, helpless. Must I add that the high blood sugar really did a number on me. It affected everything, from my daily mood, to my appetite, to my sleeping habit, sensations in my feet, the numbing nerve in my right thigh caused from the Sciatica. It is horrible.

It's been about 3 weeks since my medication was refilled but I'm still struggling to get back on a managed level. It's been hard 'cause I was sick with the flu and that completely chased my appetite away. Moreover, I couldn't even keep anything in my stomach; it was bound to come back up or out the other way, soon after consumption. Not to mention, spending a night by the throne was no fun and overly disgusting. I haven't vomit that much since my 22nd birthday. But now, I'm recuperated from the flu and am looking forward to healthier and more energized days.

I feel as if today, I'm finally making some progress with my recovery of the high blood sugar and the restlessness from the flu. I rested better than usual last night and even had an awfully awkward nightmare. After work, I'm making Chicken Katsu and heading off to a bachelorette party.

Good day, thanks for reading.